The Grace to Love Again

“I have never seen a marriage like this ever!”

Lisa Chriswell - Quote from Lisa on a video call to her sister-in-law and niece, giving glory to God for our marriage on October 2, 2025 (4.5 years after God put us together as captured in the below audio series.

But wisdom is proved right [vindicated]
by all her children."
- Luke 7:35

In the story of two harlots and a faithful bride, Lisa Chriswell, is that faithful bride (MY faithful bride). This is the extraordinary journey of faith and perseverance, we both took, in order to receive His redemptions and the best “wine” which God had saved for last. (John 2:10).

The strain, the difficulty, the long periods of waiting, the pushbacks, and the relentless Satanic opposition you see against our being able to marry, in this series, is a type and a foreshadowing of just how difficult it will be for the Bride of Christ who will endure through the increasingly terrible days ahead, in order to make it to their own wedding to Jesus Christ, as an overcomer.

Please believe this prophetic example and warning to all us, from the Lord’s great mercy! Scripture has already told us that the true Christians must enter into the kingdom of heaven through MANY afflictions. (Acts 14:22) This story is a vivid picture of those many afflictions!

01 - New Zealand Breaks Up My Marriage

  • Michael shares his deeply personal journey through the pain of two failed marriages and into the unexpected joy of a third. This real-time story chronicles how God granted him the grace to love and trust again, serving as a powerful testament to keeping faith even when the world is falling apart.

Ep. 02 - Seeing it from God's Perspective

  • This audio post by Michael explores the profound spiritual lessons learned through the pain of three marriages, tracing a journey from heartbreak to a deeper understanding of God's redemptive love. It's a real-time story of finding the grace to love and trust again, culminating in an overwhelming sense of God's intricate and purposeful design in every season of life.

Ep. 03 - God's Blessing or Satan's Temptation

  • In this audio journal, Michael shares his emotional and spiritual journey through the trials of past relationships and the surprising development of a new connection. He honestly recounts a dream that sparks both hope and confusion, leaving him to grapple with his faith and trust in God's ultimate plan for his life.

Ep. 04 - Asking God for a Sign to Know His Will

  • In this deeply personal audio journey, Michael shares the profound lessons learned through the pain of three marriages, tracing his path from heartbreak to a deeper understanding of God's blessings and love. He recounts powerful, real-time stories of spiritual death and rebirth, illustrating how moments of adultery and apostasy ultimately led him to a more profound faith and the grace to love again.

Ep. 05 - If You Can Gain Your Freedom Do So

  • Join Michael, on a dramatic 15-hour car ride that marks a pivotal turning point in my spiritual journey regarding marriage. Discover the stunningly remarkable parallels I found between my own story and a powerful testimony from Derek Prince, which raises the question of whether God is acting as the divine matchmaker in my life.

Ep. 06 - Every Matter Established by Two or Three Witnesses

  • In this audio, Michael shares the deeply personal story of his three marriages, each marked by profound spiritual lessons in the face of heartbreak from adultery and apostasy. He recounts a journey of learning to trust God's plan, even through spiritual death, and the incredible ways God has confirmed His faithfulness through signs and wonders.

Ep. 07 - When God Says Let Go and Move On

  • In this moving audio post, Michael shares a deeply personal journey of faith, revealing how God has guided him to let go of his hope for his wife's return. He also offers a profound reflection on trusting God's plan, even amidst unanswered prayers and mysterious circumstances, while announcing that he will be sharing more about this new chapter in his life.

Ep. 08 - God Brings Us of Out to Bring Us IN

  • In a deeply personal testimony, Michael reflects on the heartbreak and spiritual growth from his first two marriages, sharing how God used profound pain to bring him to a deeper level of faith and trust. He then recounts the incredible story and undeniable providences that led him to love again, illustrating how God's redemptive blessings can far exceed anything we could ever imagine.

Ep. 09 - Faith, Hope and Love

  • In this deeply personal and faith-driven audio, Michael recounts his journey through the heartbreak of two failed marriages and the incredible series of divine confirmations that led him to a place of renewed hope. Following what he interprets as unmistakable signs from God, he makes a bold and unconventional proposal to a woman named Lisa, whom he barely knows, trusting that she is God's chosen wife for him.

Ep. 10 - God Rewards My Faith with a New Wife

  • Michael shares his powerful testimony of how God used his past pain to deepen his faith and teach him how to love again. This is the incredible real-time story of trusting God for a wife of noble character, a journey filled with a series of undeniable providences that revealed his greatest blessings were still ahead.

Ep. 11 - Jesus Wants His Bride to Be HOT for Him

  • In this a deeply personal account, Michael shares his journey through the pain of two failed marriages that ultimately strengthened his faith in God. He recounts a series of divine providences that led him to find love again, culminating in a blessing he likens to the restoration of Job.

Ep. 12 - Prepare to Leave the Land

  • In this audio, Michael recounts his journey through the profound heartbreak of two failed marriages, one ending in adultery and the other in apostasy. He shares the incredible story of how God used a series of undeniable signs to grant him the grace to love again, leading him toward a future he describes as a "Job 42:10 blessing."

Ep. 13 - With God All Things Are Possible

  • Join Michael on his deeply personal journey through the pain of two failed marriages, where heartbreak from adultery and apostasy ultimately taught him to trust God amidst spiritual death. Discover how a series of incredible providential signs gave him the grace to love again, leading him to step out in faith towards a new beginning he never thought possible.

Ep. 14 - Fight the Good Fight of Faith

  • In this audio, Michael reflects on the remarkable providence of God in his life, recounting the unexpected twists and turns that led him to his future wife, Lisa. Through a series of divinely orchestrated events and signs, he shares how God confirmed their union, demonstrating that even amidst uncertainty and past heartbreak, God's plan unfolds in ways more wonderful than we can imagine.

Ep. 15 - Satan Sends the Snakes

  • In this deeply personal post, Michael reflects on the painful lessons learned from two previous marriages. He then shares the incredible story of how a series of undeniable divine signs has given him the grace to love again and step out in faith towards a new marriage.

Ep. 16 - A Land Flowing with Milk & A Honey

  • In this deeply personal and miraculous update, Michael shares the incredible story of how God has revealed that a woman named Lisa is to be his wife, confirmed through a series of undeniable signs. This post is a testament to trusting God's unconventional plans and stepping out in faith, even when it means moving across the world and facing the unknown.

Ep. 17 - The Wedding Day Prophecy-OLD

  • In this latest update, Michael reveals a monumental moment where God prophetically gives him the exact dates for both his arrival in New Zealand and his wedding to Lisa. This entry is a powerful testament to the miraculous and detailed nature of God's providence, showing how even the most impossible obstacles can be overcome through faith.

Ep. 18 - When God's Comfort Finally Comes

  • Michael shares the miraculous story of his engagement to Lisa, a woman from New Zealand God revealed to him through numerous prophetic signs. He recounts the journey from past marital heartbreak to a new season of joy and faith, highlighting the incredible ways God has confirmed their future and even provided the dates for their wedding.

Ep. 19 - In Awe of God's Power

  • In this latest entry, Michael shares an incredible update on his journey toward marriage with Lisa, revealing a series of divine confirmations including a plane ticket purchase marked by multiple prophetic numbers. He also announces a shift in the format of his ministry, promising a more concise and focused narrative on God's guidance and the profound similarities and connections he and Lisa continue to discover.

Ep. 20 - A Very Special Answer to Prayer

  • In a new, more concise format for his ministry, Michael shares select journal entries detailing the miraculous and divinely orchestrated story of his journey to his future wife, Lisa. He reveals the astonishing ways God has confirmed their union, including a second 777-day miracle, and the profound sense that Lisa was spiritually made for him, just as Eve was created from Adam's side.

Ep. 21 - How God Proves Our Love True

  • Michael likens the longing and suffering in his long-distance relationship to the spiritual journey of waiting for union with Jesus Christ. He discusses specific dates and biblical passages, such as Genesis 9:11, interpreting them as divine promises that sustain him and Lisa through their separation.

Ep. 22 - The Dragon Was Enraged at the Woman

  • Continuing his journal series, Michael interprets the escalating spiritual attacks and demonic nightmares afflicting his fiancée Lisa as a divine trial, explaining that their suffering is necessary to prove the authenticity of their faith and love. He bolsters this perspective with evidence of God's ongoing confirmation, pointing to a remarkable 777-day pattern in his life events and perfectly timed scriptural promises that assure him of God's ultimate plan and protection.

Ep. 23 - Overcoming Satan by Force and Faith

  • In this episode, Michael discusses the intense spiritual attacks he and his fiancée Lisa are facing, framing their suffering as a necessary trial to prove their faith and deepen their reliance on God's providence, drawing encouragement from John Flavel's "The Mystery of Providence." The focus then shifts to the seemingly impossible idea of shipping his tiny house to New Zealand, a concept that has resurfaced through prayer and is interpreted as a new adventure in faith, supported by a series of what he believes are prophetic signs.

Ep. 24 - Prayers That Moved a Mountain

  • Michael recounts the incredible supernatural miracle where God provides the exact amount of money needed for him to move his tiny house to New Zealand and marry Lisa, solidifying their faith despite seemingly impossible circumstances. He emphasizes how every obstacle and doubt was overcome by clinging to specific biblical promises and signs, culminating in a miraculous provision that left him in awe of God's power and faithfulness.

Ep. 25 - God Miraculously Multiplies Our Little

  • Michael discusses the intense spiritual warfare he and Lisa, have been facing, particularly after receiving a miraculous financial blessing that confirms God's plan for them to move his tiny house to New Zealand. He shares a deeply personal prayer and subsequent recording where he feels paralyzed by doubt and confusion, yet ultimately finds strength in God's promises and the unwavering faith of Lisa.

Ep. 26 - When Our Faith Feels Stuck

  • In a deeply personal reflection, author Michael shares his journey of faith and perseverance amidst intense spiritual attacks and numerous obstacles in his relationship with Lisa, including the miraculous confirmation of their plan to move his tiny house to New Zealand. He reads from Puritan authors like John Flavel and Thomas Watson, emphasizing the importance of waiting on God's providence, resisting Satan's treachery, and finding strength in God's promises, all while preparing for their September 11th wedding.

Ep. 27 - God Begins Unblocking Our Way

  • Michael recounts the spiritual warfare he and his fiancée, Lisa, endure as they await God's providence in their long-distance relationship, finding encouragement in shared scripture and the signs they believe God is sending them. He discusses the overwhelming joy and immediate spiritual paralysis that followed a miraculous financial answer to prayer, solidifying their plan to ship his tiny house to New Zealand as a testament to their unwavering faith.

Ep. 28 - Martha Martha Worried and Upset About End Times Things

  • Michael shares how he and Lisa navigated a series of spiritual attacks and frustrating setbacks with faith, finding encouragement in scripture and each other's support. Despite facing seemingly insurmountable obstacles, their unwavering belief in God's promises leads to a series of miraculous breakthroughs, reinforcing their conviction that divine intervention is guiding their journey together.


Ep. 29 - Thus Far the Lord Has Helped Us

  • As Michael prepares to leave for New Zealand, he is facing an impassable "Jordan River" of obstacles, including a denied passport, closed borders, and a massive financial need. Despite the seemingly impossible circumstances, his faith remains steadfast as I recount the prophetic signs and biblical wonders God has shown him, and is moving forward with the conviction that He is about to perform an incredible miracle.

Ep. 30 - Faithful to the Point of Death

  • In a heartfelt message Michael shares his experience of going to the Atlanta airport with faith, despite lacking the necessary travel documents to get to New Zealand for his wedding. After getting denied at the airport, he finds renewed hope through a series of encouraging signs and scriptures, as well as the unwavering support of Lisa.

Ep. 31 - God Would NEVER Do THAT

  • In this personal message, Michael encourages his listeners and shares insights from his readings of "The Mystery of God's Providence" by John Flavel and "Heaven by Force" by Thomas Watson. He also reveals a dramatic turn in his personal life, announcing his intention to ship his tiny house to New Zealand to be with his beloved, Lisa.

Ep. 32 - Our Faith is Severely Tested

  • In this episode, Michael shares the readings from Puritan author John Flavel while under intense spiritual attack and grapple with the seemingly impossible plan to ship my tiny house to New Zealand. This decision culminates in his journey to the airport—his own "Jordan River"—where he faces the impossible without a passport and only my trust in God.

Ep. 33 - To Know the Power of His Resurrection

  • Michael, reads devotional passages to his fiancée, Lisa, drawing parallels between biblical trials and their own, emphasizing that God uses adversity to strengthen faith. He shares a miraculous financial answer to prayer and views the challenges they face, including a potential $20,000 tax on his tiny house, as part of God's larger plan to display His resurrection power.

Ep. 34 - Birds of Prey Are Sent to Devour Our Faith

  • Michael recounts how a simple phrase, "the God of wonders," from an Austin Sparks sermon resonated with him as he faced seemingly insurmountable obstacles in his journey to join his fiancée, Lisa, in New Zealand. He sees his current struggles, including a denied passport and a lack of funds.

Ep. 35 - God's Plan for Every Marriage is Happiness

  • Michael documents the intense spiritual warfare he and his fiancée, Lisa, are facing just days before their wedding, describing a barrage of terrible dreams and frustrating circumstances designed to test their faith. Drawing strength from classic Christian writings and their shared prayer, they interpret these escalating attacks as confirmation that they are nearing a spiritual victory and the divine comfort God has promised for their marriage.

Ep. 36 - Do Not Suppose I Came To Bring Peace

  • Michael reflects on the intense and painful persecution he and his fiancée Lisa have faced, particularly from those who twist their words and cast evil suspicions on their ministry and relationship. He explores the biblical nature of such division, referencing authors like Austin Sparks to explain how Satan uses misinterpretation and fear to sow dissent among believers, ultimately encouraging listeners to seek common ground in Christ rather than focusing on differences.

Ep. 37 - Is This the Hill I Die On

  • In this emotional and raw journal entry, Michael grapples with the immense temptation to give up after facing a series of crushing financial and personal blows right before his wedding. He concludes that forgetting God's past works is the only way to lose hope, making remembrance an act of defiant faith in the face of impossible circumstances.

Ep. 38 - WHY

  • In a deeply personal prayer recorded in the middle of the night, Michael expresses his despair and sense of defeat after a perceived promise from God about his wedding date did not come to pass. As both he and his fiancée Lisa grapple with their feelings of being brought into death, this episode captures the raw, agonizing moments of holding onto faith when everything seems lost.

Ep. 39 - Oh Death Where is Your Sting

  • Michael shares his vulnerable prayers and raw emotions after facing what seems like a crushing defeat on the very day he expected a miraculous deliverance for his wedding. He reflects on how this profound disappointment is leading him and his fiancée, Lisa, into a deeper understanding of resurrection life, finding hope and joy even in the face of what feels like spiritual death.

Ep. 40 - Do Not Sin By Charging God with Wrong Doing

  • Michael and Lisa share their raw journal entries from the day their long-awaited wedding was supposed to happen, grappling with immense disappointment and the feeling of spiritual death. They find that this very experience of total hopelessness is where God meets them, teaching them to have faith against all hope and leading them into a profound understanding of resurrection life.

Ep. 41 - I Will Not Defend Myself Lord

  • In a deeply personal and raw prayer, Michael lays bare his soul as he navigates a hellish battle of suffering, false accusations, and overwhelming pressure. Despite being pushed to the brink of despair, he makes a profound vow to cease defending himself and instead places his complete trust in God's sovereignty, finding a renewed sense of peace and purpose in total surrender.

Ep. 42 - New Zealand Customs Tiny House Nightmare

  • In a raw and emotional entry, Michael details the bureaucratic and financial "black hole" of New Zealand customs, a process so costly it feels like a personal violation and threatens to consume his tiny house entirely. However, through a series of startling "Romans 8:28" moments, he and Lisa begin to see God's hidden providence, realizing how a painful wedding postponement and an unpaid debt were actually divine protection for the coming storm.

Ep. 43 - CRISIS AVERTED When God Gives Us ANOTHER Last Minute Deliverance

  • In a surreal culmination of an 8,000-mile journey, Michael witnesses via video as his tiny house, the physical promise of a future with Lisa, finally arrives on her property in New Zealand. The overwhelming moment deepens into a profound spiritual revelation as he uncovers a divine pattern in the shipping dates, finding vindication for their painful wedding postponement on September 11th, which is now revealed as the very day the house was officially logged at the port—transforming a date of loss into a powerful testament to God's providence.

Ep. 44 - When God Intentionally Disappoints Us

  • In a direct address to his listeners, Michael argues that an obsession with end-time prophecy and worldly anxieties is a distraction from the true Christian calling, turning believers into "Marthas" who are weighed down by worries instead of "Marys" sitting at the feet of Jesus. He asserts that this focus on sensationalized channels and the "anxieties of life" is a form of unbelief, preventing Christians from doing the simple, personal will of God in their own lives.

Ep. 45 - The Next Peace Robbing Crisis

  • In a candid reflection recorded on September 17th, 2021, Michael shares his immense gratitude for the spiritual growth cultivated in him through years of suffering, comparing God's gentle, yet thorough, character development to the careful tending of a garden. He draws a powerful parallel between the painful "pruning" of his deepest desires—like the stillborn promise of his marriage—and the biblical story of Abraham and Isaac, finding profound meaning in the realization that God tests what is most precious to reveal and strengthen what is truly supreme in the heart.

Ep. 46 - Trouble Where Faith is Built

  • In the wake of three profound "deaths"—the painful postponements of his wedding—Michael reflects on the ultimate test of faith where God required the sacrifice of their "Isaac." He reveals how these crushing disappointments were actually God's practical way of leading them through the wilderness, purging their hearts in preparation for a powerful resurrection of faith and a deeper understanding of His mysterious ways.

Ep. 47 - And You Thought Sexual Sin Was Bad

  • This recording explores the profound difference between sins of the flesh and the far greater sin of unbelief, making a case for unwavering faith. Michael, shares personal testimonies to illustrate how God's power is perfected in our weaknesses and how true faith shines brightest in the face of trials and seeming defeat.

Ep. 48 - When the Enemy Comes In Like a Flood

  • Join Michael as he shares a powerful testimony on the nature of true faith, exploring why unbelief is a significant transgression in the eyes of God. Through his personal journey of immense trials and perceived defeats, he reveals the profound truth of God's all-surpassing power that consistently triumphs in the face of adversity.

Ep. 49 - Look What Happens if You Quit

  • Join Michael as he shares a profound testimony about the all-surpassing power of God in the face of relentless trials from a mountaintop. This message delves into the significance of faith, suffering, perseverance, and how God's glory is revealed through life's most challenging circumstances.

Ep. 50 - Conspiracy Theory Warnings

  • Join Michael as he shares a profound message about the often-misunderstood nature of faith and the surprising truth about what God considers the greater sin. This reflection challenges common perceptions and encourages a deeper understanding of a faith that perseveres through trials.

Ep. 51 - Two Women & A Warning from God

  • Join Michael on a deeply personal journey as he unpacks the difficult truth about faith in the face of constant trials and what looks like defeat. Through his own testimony of being given over to death time and again, he reveals how God’s resurrection life continually prevails, demonstrating a faith that worships even when promises are delayed.

Ep. 52 - Prisoners of Hope

  • Michael shares his personal testimony of being a "prisoner of hope" while navigating seasons of intense suffering and waiting. He explains how God uses these difficult periods of perseverance to build character and ultimately reveal a glory that far outweighs the pain of the journey.

Ep. 53 - The Greatest Proof of True Faith

  • In this deeply moving audio entry, author Michael candidly shares how the Lord has been working to bring him into a place of true humility and surrender. Through a series of personal dreams and scriptural reflections, he explores the profound truth that it is through suffering and perseverance that we are marked with the character of Christ, ultimately leading to a hope that does not disappoint.

Ep. 54 - This Calls for Patient Endurance

  • Michael explores the profound connection between suffering, perseverance, character, and hope, reminding listeners that God's greatest blessings often emerge from our deepest trials. By embracing the refining fire of affliction and holding fast to faith, we can experience a hope that transcends earthly disappointments and find true rest in the unwavering promises of Christ.

Ep. 55 - Will Suffering Make You a Scrap Heap Christian

  • Join Michael for a profound exploration of faith, where he reveals that the Christian journey is often one of suffering designed to display God's resurrection life over death. Drawing from his own painful experiences with disappointment and delay, he illustrates how perseverance through these trials builds an unshakeable character and a hope that ultimately reveals God's greater glory.

Ep. 56 - When Jesus Brings the Sword

  • In this audio Michael shares profound spiritual insights gained through years of personal trials and suffering. He explains how embracing difficulties is essential for developing perseverance and character, which ultimately leads to a deeper, unshakable hope and love rooted in God's faithfulness.

Ep. 57 - Fasting, Humility, Grace

  • Michael recounts his recent experience with fasting, explaining how humbling the soul and body is the key to receiving God's grace. He reveals that this period of suffering produced perseverance, character, and an unshakeable hope that does not disappoint.

Ep. 58 - The Saving Grace of Humility

  • Michael shares profound spiritual insights gained through years of personal trials and suffering. He explains how embracing difficulties is essential for developing perseverance and character, which ultimately leads to a deeper, unshakable hope and love rooted in God's faithfulness.

Ep. 59 - Pride And Humility What We Get Wrong

  • Michael discusses his spiritual journey, explaining that suffering produces perseverance, character, and ultimately, hope. He shares that true peace is found not in changing one's circumstances, but in aligning one's spirit with God's will and being exalted by His grace.

Ep. 60 - God Exalts the Humble

  • Michael shares profound spiritual insights gained through years of personal trials and suffering. He explains how embracing difficulties is essential for developing perseverance and character, which ultimately leads to a deeper, unshakable hope and love rooted in God's faithfulness.

Ep. 61 - The Secret of True Happiness

  • Michael discusses the Puritan belief that all events stem from God as the "first cause," rejecting the notion of "second causes" like the devil or other people's actions. He emphasizes that true happiness lies in accepting God's will, viewing daily difficulties not as random occurrences but as divine instruments for spiritual growth and correction.

Ep. 62 - Terrifying Prophetic Sign About God's Coming Wrath Against Man's Pride

  • Michael describes a series of bizarre encounters with a deer skull, which he interprets as a terrifying prophetic sign directly from God. This sign, referencing a grim passage in Ezekiel, serves as a stark warning against pride, illustrating how God will humble the strong and scatter those who do not repent.

Ep. 63 - Doing the Lord's Will

  • In this message, Michael discusses the immense difficulty of the true Christian life, explaining that it is not about adding Jesus to your own plans but about the painful, daily surrender of becoming a bond servant to Christ. This means carrying your cross and yielding control, a constant spiritual conflict where you learn to wait for God’s will instead of doing what you want, which is the very essence of living a life that is no longer your own.

Ep. 64 - Apologetics Never Produces True Faith

  • Michael challenges the intellectual pride of experts who seek God through science and archaeology, arguing that true evidence is revealed not through sight but through humble faith. He then presents his own astonishing proof: a detailed account of how God precisely mirrored the entire timeline of the Genesis flood story in the dates of his own personal journey of divorce and remarriage.

Ep. 65 - Reluctant Confessions of a Minor Prophet

  • In this episode, Michael candidly shares his personal journey of coming to terms with his prophetic calling, revealing the difficult and often isolating path that comes with being a prophet whose own life becomes the message. He explains the profound difference between the office of a prophet and the gift of prophecy, emphasizing that while many can receive prophetic gifts, the office is a sovereign calling from God marked by extraordinary signs and intense personal suffering.

Ep. 66 - When Does God Answer Your Prayers

  • In this episode, Michael explains that once you have prayed in faith, the blessing is already secured; the next step is not another battle of faith, but rather the difficult and often overlooked practice of patient waiting for God's perfect timing to unfold. He shares a profound revelation: because God exists outside of time and space, He answers prayers in an "ever-present now," and our linear perception of time must patiently catch up to what He has already done.

Ep. 67 - When God Delivers You By the Skin of Your Teeth

  • Michael confronts the misleading narratives Christians tell themselves about a triumphant life, revealing that the true biblical pattern is often a perplexing journey of "barely getting by" through constant struggle and suffering. This experience is designed to shatter human pride and the "narrative fallacies" we create from sight, forcing a reliance on humble faith to see God's victory, which He often conceals within what appears to be weakness or failure.

Ep. 68 - When Only God Can Make A Way

  • Michael delves into the Puritan belief in "first causes," arguing that all events in life, including daily perplexities and afflictions, stem directly from the will of God rather than secondary influences. Drawing from Harvey Newcomb's "The Secret of True Happiness," he explains that finding peace requires a cordial acquiescence to God's plan, recognizing that every trial is an instrument designed to correct our sins and deepen our dependence on Him.

Ep. 69 - Attacks & Distractions 7 Days Before a Blessing

  • Michael details the spiritual significance of seemingly mundane occurrences, interpreting them as divine messages. He explains that these events serve to strengthen his faith and guide his decisions.

Ep. 70 - Bags Ship to New Zealand on a Remarkable Day

  • In this personal update, Michael shares the remarkable story of finally shipping his personal belongings to New Zealand, an event that occurred exactly seven months and seven days after a deeply trying experience at the Atlanta airport. He draws a powerful parallel between this timing and Brother Yun's imprisonment, interpreting it as a profound confirmation of God's perfect plan and a sign to move forward in faith.

Ep. 71 - Turn That Stone into Bread

  • In this deeply personal reflection, Michael shares his journey through an intense season of suffering, drawing powerful parallels between his own "wilderness" experience and biblical tests of faith. He reveals an incredible connection between his 7 months and 7 days of trial and the story of Brother Yun, illustrating how waiting on God through periods of "starvation" and resisting temptation ultimately leads to a promised spiritual feast.

Ep. 72 - A Bird in the Hand

  • On a dark and difficult morning, Michael grapples with the feeling of being forsaken, framing his current trial as a painful "bondage to a promise" where faith is tested against the temptation to seek worldly pain relief. He explains that this suffering is a microcosm of the end-times, where the true bride of Christ must deny herself and endure the wilderness, trusting that the ultimate reward will far outweigh the present struggle.

Ep. 73 - Satan Exploits Our Weakness

  • In this audio, Michael shares an intimate reflection on facing financial and emotional hardships, viewing them as a spiritual test from God. He explains why believers should not expect to be exempt from suffering and sees his personal trials as a picture of the perseverance required to endure the end times.

Ep. 74 - Resisting Satan's Clever Temptations

  • In this audio, Michael describes the intense spiritual and emotional trials he and Lisa are enduring, likening their suffering to Jesus's final days in the wilderness and seeing it as a test of faith. He explains that these hardships are a lesson in perseverance, showing how to resist worldly temptations for "pain relief" and instead wait on God, providing a roadmap for believers in the end times.

Ep. 75 - Strong Faith is Militant Faith

  • In this audio, Michael draws parallels between his personal "trial of faith" and the story of Jeremiah, emphasizing that true faith requires militant obedience even when circumstances seem impossible. He shares his emotional and spiritual struggles, finding solace in the idea that suffering is a refining process from God and that even in moments of despair, one must cast their cares upon the Lord.

Ep. 76 - Your Perseverance Can Save Others

  • In this audio, Michael reflects on the profound suffering and seemingly impossible circumstances he and Lisa are facing, seeing their journey as a test where they must appear as "fools for Christ." He believes this trial is a living example and prophetic "type" meant to become a roadmap of perseverance and a testimony to God's ultimate faithfulness for other believers navigating the end times.

Ep. 77 - Do You Love Them More Than God

  • In this audio, Michael explains that the prolonged suffering and waiting he and Lisa endure is a divine "insurance program" to ensure they do not love the gift of their marriage more than God, the Giver. He finds peace in understanding that their obedience, even through pain and temptation, is refining their faith and love, proving to God that He is their ultimate desire and first love above all else.

Ep. 78 - When a Christian Must Use Violence

  • In this audio, Michael draws parallels between his personal "trial of faith" and the story of Jeremiah, emphasizing that true faith requires militant obedience even when circumstances seem impossible. He explains that this struggle is a refining process through which one truly comes to know God, and that offering "violence" to one's own fleshly desires is necessary to overcome doubt and receive God's strength.

Ep. 79 - Hard Places in the Way of Faith

  • In a reading from A.B. Simpson's "Hard Places in the Way of Faith," Michael challenges the common idea that a life of faith is supposed to be easy. Using biblical figures like Abraham and Paul, he illustrates that trials and difficulties are not only expected but are the very places where God's grace and extraordinary intervention are revealed.

Ep. 80 - We Felt the Sentence of Death in Our Hearts

  • Michael recounts a night of intense spiritual warfare and deep disappointment, where a direct satanic attack and a series of failed prophetic dates pushed him to the brink of despair. He questions whether God is intentionally testing his faith to its breaking point, concluding that these "sentences of death" are designed to teach total reliance on God's resurrection power and the necessity of enduring to the end.

Ep. 81 - When God Seem Cruel

  • Michael shares the tremendous torment and suffering he experienced, from his passport expiring after 322 days to customs complications that made their move feel hopeless. Despite feeling like God was being cruel and that he were just going from one prison to the next, he found that there is a part of the spirit that cannot be quenched, a stubborn hope that knows God will ultimately turn everything for good.

Ep. 82 - WAY PAST WITS END

  • Drawing from a 20-year "river of suffering," this episode documents Michael’s climactic breaking point where, after being literally confronted by snakes on the trail, he is pushed to his wit's end and cries out in anguish and frustration at God. He shares this intensely raw and emotional moment to illustrate the reality of spiritual warfare and being "worn out," showing that even the most faithful servants like Moses and Elijah can be pushed to the point of asking God to take their life.

Ep. 83 - MONEY- Lessons Learned after 10 Years of Living Entirely By Faith

  • Reflecting on ten years of 'cliff jumping' into financial faith, Michael share how seeing money as a divine 'pass-through' brings incredible freedom from worry. This powerful lesson is brought to life through his wife Lisa’s own gripping testimony of taking a leap of faith out of a dead marriage, trusting God completely for her provision, and watching Him prove faithful in every way.

Ep. 84 - Weeping May Endure for the Night

  • After enduring one of the worst meltdowns of his life, a Gethsemane-like agony where he felt utterly spent and tempted to get mad at God, Michael finds himself lifted up the very next day by the resurrection power of Jesus Christ, reminding us that suffering only becomes worthwhile through perseverance. This episode explores the profound truth that our suffering on earth, a necessary payment of service to the King, is like an investment into a spiritual bank account that yields the eternal reward of glory.

Ep. 85 - Wasting Our Life For Jesus

  • What looks like "wasting your life" from the world's perspective is actually the greatest investment one can make, a truth powerfully illustrated by Lisa, whose willingness to suffer proves her faith and ultimately her love. On day 412 of their journey—a number symbolic of the "cord of three strands"—they stand as victorious overcomers, recognizing that to truly make Jesus your Lord means choosing to lose your life for Him, knowing that He redeems the time and you will surely find it.

Ep. 86 - God No Longer Speaks

  • In a powerful rebuke of the 'sola scriptura' doctrine, Michael argues that this belief cuts the heart out of a living relationship with God, replacing the active guidance of the Holy Spirit with a dead, intellectual religion. He champions the example of Mary of Bethany, whose extravagant "waste" of expensive perfume on Jesus illustrates that true faith is not about simply doing good deeds, but about sacrificially pouring out your life for a living, speaking Lord.

Ep. 87 - When God Puts Your Faith on the Stretching Rack

  • Likening the agonizing experience of waiting on God's promises to being on a Roman stretching rack, Michael describes the fight of faith as a battle for focus against hopelessness and despair. He explains that even when circumstances, time, and Satan himself seem to block the path, one must stubbornly reject what is seen and hold fast to the belief that God is sovereignly orchestrating everything for our good and His glory.

Ep. 88 - Astonishing Day of Deliverance

  • After enduring a painful nine-month spiritual darkness where everything was stalled, Michael shares the stunning story of a sudden, three-fold deliverance from the Lord. The stunning prophetic timing behind Lisa's legal name change, a miraculous financial inheritance, and the release of his bags from customs serves as a powerful testament to God's faithfulness and a profound encouragement to persevere in faith.

Ep. 89 - The Devil In Your Ear

  • The most sinister aspect of spiritual warfare is how Satan hides his attacks within natural circumstances, requiring relentless faith just to recognize the battle is real. Reflecting on the relentless opposition he is facing—including his personal bags being held in customs for two months—Michael identifies this as the most intense antagonism of his life, yet a familiar pattern that proves God's people must never quit.

Ep. 90 - When God's Guidance Makes No Sense - Part 01

  • God's mysterious ways often test our faith, leading us down paths that seem to contradict His very promises, much like Abraham being asked to sacrifice Isaac. It is in these moments of profound perplexity, when we are brought to the point of surrender, that we truly discover His purpose and experience the beautiful enlargement of our hearts.

Ep. 91 - When God's Guidance Makes You Dizzy

  • In a heartfelt email, a listener apologizes for his past pharisaical judgment, where he wrongly equated Michael’s suffering with being outside of God's will. His powerful testimony serves as a profound illustration of moving beyond the "soured milk" of rigid doctrine to embrace the mysterious, often perplexing, and deeply personal walk of a living faith.

Ep. 92 - The Bank Says I'm a Fraud

  • Recounting a moment of almost unbelievable spiritual drama, Michael describes how his own bank allegedly told another bank he was a fraud, highlighting the intense satanic opposition that marks his daily life. This incident is just one example in a life so full of satanic and heavenly drama that it requires a high level of faith to believe, creating a profound sense of isolation understood only through the lens of a life completely surrendered to God.

Ep. 93 - Satan Can't Keep a Man of Faith Down

  • After a hellish night of spiritual warfare, Michael recounts how God performed an immediate healing of a woman's facial numbness through prayer, a miracle so incredible that she doubted anyone would believe her story. This powerful event, prophetically highlighted by a perfectly timed sign from the book of Esther, serves as a dramatic testament to persevering in faith even when God's will appears to contradict human logic and "break the law."

Ep. 94 - The Grace to Wait for God's Perfect Timing

  • In an intimate reflection on her spiritual journey, Lisa shares how the passing of another marker date has been met not with despair, but with a profound peace and patient trust in God's timing. She finds deep encouragement in the understanding that the Lord's delays are purposeful, designed to ripen our souls and make the eventual fulfillment of His promises "doubly precious."

Ep. 95 - No One Ever Told Me This About Fasting

  • Discover how the deep suffering of a fast, a state of total deprivation, paradoxically results in a spiritual reset that leaves one with a gentle and sweet disposition. This intentional journey through discomfort becomes a doorway to resurrection, where subduing the flesh allows for a profound infilling of God's grace and renewed strength for the road ahead.

Ep. 96 - This is Satan's Kingdom

  • As Christians, we must understand that we live in an enemy-occupied territory where hardships are not a sign of God's absence, but proof of our place in His kingdom, as Satan actively opposes those who follow Christ. Just as the numerous snakes blocking Michael’s path have been a prophetic warning of this spiritual war, a final, uniquely peaceful encounter with the largest serpent yet signals that his days of struggle are nearly over and a season of rest is at hand.

Ep. 97 - Providence of God or Confirmation Bias

  • Drawing from the wisdom of JC Ryle, Michael explains that the Christian life is a journey through an enemy-occupied territory where satanic opposition and severe hardships are not strange, but are rather signs that you are indeed in the Kingdom of God. Through the spiritual discipline of fasting, one can paradoxically find a divine reset, subduing the flesh to receive an untouchable grace that brings peace and strength for the battle ahead.

Ep. 98 - Promise from God or Foolish Presumption

  • Michael describes the spiritual principle of "digging ditches"—the act of preparing for God's supernatural provision by publicly declaring an impossible need and trusting in His promises against all odds. Just as with biblical prophecy, the ultimate vindication of this faith comes only when the promise is fulfilled, transforming a seemingly impossible journey into a powerful testament to God's miraculous ways.

Ep. 99 - The Supreme Miracle

  • In what he describes as an "ongoing miracle," Michael explains that the painful "crook in the lot" is actually a divinely designed crucible of fire and water, meant to test our faith and prove it genuine. It is through this tempering process of patiently submitting to God's will that we achieve true self-denial, finding our corrupt nature defeated and the beautiful character of Christ formed in us.

Ep. 100 - Has Our Ship Finally Come In

  • Following a period of intense spiritual testing on the "stretching rack," a direct and astonishingly specific answer to prayer has miraculously appeared: a 51-foot catamaran, purchased by an acquaintance, ready to sail from near Australia to New Zealand. This seemingly impossible providence confirms that after a long wait, God can orchestrate a breakthrough, proving that what seems like a far-fetched dream can become a tangible reality in an instant.

Ep. 101 - Satan Tempts Me Into Sin

  • Michael recounts a significant spiritual battle from August 18, 2022, detailing how he was tempted and ultimately fell into sin by engaging with a foolish and unbiblical email. Drawing parallels to Nehemiah's struggle, he explains how this satanic attack was a clever tactic to distract him and drain his spiritual energy, reinforcing the need to stay alert and focused on God's work.

Ep. 102 - There Will Be Signs

  • Michael delves into the astonishing providential patterns God has woven into his life, highlighting how specific numbers like 777 and 9/11 serve as divine signatures on major events. He connects these numerical markers to key moments with his wife, Lisa, and biblical events like the Exodus, viewing them as undeniable signs that his redemption is drawing near.

Ep. 103 - The Lie of Dignified Christianity

  • Michael's blog post challenges the conventional, dignified image of Christian life by examining the harsh realities faced by biblical figures from Moses to Jesus. He argues that true faith is not found in polished perfection but in the midst of suffering, weakness, and the undignified struggles that mirror the authentic human experience found in Scripture.

Ep. 104 - Divine Encounter

  • Michael passionately condemns the 'dignified' and often 'weird' teachings of modern professing Christians, expressing shame over a version of faith he finds detached from true biblical experience. Embracing the 'lack of dignity' in his own journey, he argues that the true path of faith mirrors the suffering and lowliness of figures like John the Baptist, rather than the polished and proper image often presented today.

Ep. 105 - Unexplainable Encounters

  • In a deeply personal reflection, Michael shares a series of recent, unexplainable encounters from his trail walks, detailing bizarre occurrences like a tree that seemingly twists on its own and a prophetic blast that coincides perfectly with Scripture. He interprets these profound, goosebump-inducing moments as divine signs meant to break him out of discouragement and serve as a tangible reminder that God and His angels are actively present, even when the path forward seems unclear.

Ep. 106 - 42 Moves in the Wilderness

  • Drawing a powerful parallel between his own spiritual journey and the Israelites' 42 moves through the wilderness, Michael reflects on how God uses a series of significant dates to keep him and his wife Lisa from growing complacent. He explains that this divinely orchestrated unrest, while difficult, is a beautiful process that forces them to live like sojourners, keeping their eyes fixed on the "pillar of cloud and fire" rather than finding false comfort in their current circumstances.

Ep. 107 - When We Don't Patiently Wait on God

  • In this deeply reflective audio journal, Michael explores the profound spiritual exhaustion that comes from navigating a path where God's guidance feels intentionally unclear, much like the Israelites being moved from one desolate sand dune to another. He posits that this process, which includes following providential signs that often lead to dead ends, is God’s way of ensuring complete dependence, preventing him from trusting the signs more than the Giver and forcing him into a state of "restful expectancy."

Ep. 108 - God's Unexpected Deliverance

  • Michael grapples with the exhausting nature of his faith journey, comparing his experience to the Israelites wandering in the wilderness, where God's solutions are often unexpected and require unwavering trust amidst uncertainty. Despite the temptation to give up, he finds solace in the belief that God's plan is unfolding, even if it means enduring a prolonged season of weakness to ultimately reveal a greater, more miraculous display of divine power.

Ep. 109 - The STORY of Faith

  • Acknowledging the profound weakness and uncertainty of his spiritual waiting, Michael contemplates how God's solutions are often unexpected, using a winding path of seemingly failed dates and contradictions to dismantle self-reliance and cultivate complete dependence. Ultimately, he concludes that faith is about consciously choosing to believe a greater story—that this difficult process is God's intentional design to reveal His sovereign power and prepare him for a glorious "lifting up" when the time is right.

Ep. 110 - They Will Hate You for Being Jealous for God

  • In a compelling discourse, Michael unpacks the biblical concept of being a "troubler of Israel," explaining how a truly spiritual life inevitably becomes a "touchstone" that creates conflict by revealing the superficiality of formal, traditional, or carnal Christianity. He asserts that this friction is a hallmark of a genuine prophetic ministry, as it exposes the true state of people's hearts and forces a confrontation between comfortable religion and the costly, living reality of following Christ.

Ep. 111 - The Blessing of Not Measuring Up

  • In this latest post, Michael delves into how God utilizes our personal struggles and perceived flaws to cultivate humility and steer us away from seeking the world's approval. He shares a powerful testimony about facing a sudden, intense emotional trial just moments after receiving a significant blessing, illustrating how these challenges are meant to destroy our pride and deepen our reliance on God as our sole provider.

Ep. 112 - Guarding Our Hearts in Days of Fear & Anxiety

  • Michael discusses the vulnerability of being a "feeler" and how the constant influx of the world's negativity can drain his energy and peace. He shares that the battle between life and death is fought in the heart, and the key to victory is to intentionally replace negative thoughts with a focus on whatever is true, noble, pure, and praiseworthy.

Ep. 113 - The Divine Mystery of Suffering-NEW

  • Michael discusses the divine mystery of suffering and how it brings our hearts to a place of complete, restful submission under the hand of God. He shares a powerful testimony of how, after a much-anticipated date passed without circumstantial change, he and Lisa were blessed with an unexpected and profound internal peace, a sign that perseverance has finished its blessed work.

Ep. 114 - Winning the Crown of Life

  • In this powerful post, Michael reveals how years of enduring fiery trials have led to an unexpected internal grace, crowning him and Lisa with a profound sense of peace and rest in God's will. He passionately describes how every difficulty and delay has been worked together for good, solidifying his faith that the fight is over and the crown of life has been won, not in changing circumstances, but in the complete submission of their hearts.

Ep. 115 - We Don't Walk by Feeling But By Faith

  • Michael describes a profound state of spiritual and emotional exhaustion, where all natural hope has been extinguished after the passing of an expected delivery date. He concludes that this severe test is God's way of bringing them to a place of "hope in hopelessness," where faith must exist completely independent of feelings, circumstances, or any earthly assurance.

Ep. 116 - The Superiority of Humility

  • Explore with Michael the profound spiritual contrast between a life of pride and one of humility, especially when facing afflictions. True peace and strength are found not in avoiding hardship, but in humbly submitting to God's will through trials.

Ep. 117 - The God of the Bible vs The God of Our -Imagination-

  • Join Michael as he explores the perplexing nature of a faith that clings to God even when He seems to be shaking you off. Delve into the profound, often contradictory ways God tests our devotion to build a trust that is proven worthy of His promises.

Ep. 118 - Why So Few Christians Live By Faith

  • This recording explores the profound difference between sins of the flesh and the far greater sin of unbelief, making a case for unwavering faith. Michael, shares personal testimonies to illustrate how God's power is perfected in our weaknesses and how true faith shines brightest in the face of trials and seeming defeat.

Ep. 119 - Remember What God Saved You From

  • Join Michael in a heartfelt reflection on the humbling and often perplexing journey of faith, where personal ambition gives way to a deeper appreciation for God's mysterious work. Through a poignant encounter, he rediscovers the immense grace required to be saved from the world's allure and the profound peace found when perseverance completes its work in our lives.

Ep. 120 - God Changes Us Before He Changes Our Circumstances

  • Michael shares a powerful testimony on the profound peace and joy that come from fully justifying God's perplexing ways, even in the midst of prolonged suffering. Discover how the greatest miracle is not deliverance from the fiery trial, but receiving the indestructible grace and rest of resurrection life while standing within it.