110 - David – “I am young and the future is full of despair…I am suicidal.”
“I need to discuss something very important with you. I need any medium through which I can communicate with you. I have prayed to God about my suicidal thoughts I’ve been having of late. I used to be a very very strong evangelist. All of a sudden, my life, especially my relations with people began falling apart. I need God to talk to me. Life is now so painful and I am now experiencing character assassination. I am young and the future is full of despair. I have almost given up on life as my thoughts are driving me crazy. I will tell you the details if you respond to this message. Thank You! Brother in Christ, David”
The Blessing of Feeling of Suicidal?
The darkness of life can feel suffocating. Suicidal thoughts whisper lies, tempting you to believe that there's no hope, no way out. But, by the mercy of God, feeling suicidal might turn out to be the best place you’ve ever been spiritually. A person’s love for their life in this world is the biggest barrier between them and eternal life in Christ. A person who is suicidal hates their life and Jesus taught, “The man who hates his life in this world will keep it, for eternal life.” Following Jesus Christ is a type of “suicide” to your natural life. To follow Jesus, one must be willing to give up all that they have, and this is virtually impossible for people who love their life. Feeling suicidal can be a mercy of God to break someone free from the lie of finding lasting fulfillment or happiness in this life, apart from being filled with the Spirit of Jesus Christ.
Often, our suffering stems from standing on false ground, from building our lives on a foundation of error and disobedience. We may not even recognize the cracks in our foundation until crisis strikes, until our carefully constructed world begins to crumble. God, in His love, allows these crises to break us free from the falsehood and lead us to the solid rock of His truth. As Jeremiah prophesied, God tears down to rebuild, He pulls down to plant (Jeremiah 1:10).
The path to spiritual life begins with humility. Confess your sins, your failures, your attempts to build your life apart from God's will. "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness" (1 John 1:9). God's mercies are new every morning (Lamentations 3:22-23). He offers a fresh start, a clean slate, to those who humbly seek Him.
Do not turn to man for answers, for they will only offer temporary solutions. Turn to the living Spirit of the living Christ, the person of Jesus Christ who stands waiting to do business with you. "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest" (Matthew 11:28). He is the source of true healing, true strength, and true life.
Suicide is the ultimate act of unbelief, a declaration that God is impotent, unable to see or redeem your life. It is a rejection of the hope and salvation offered through Jesus Christ. "He who stands firm to the end will be saved" (Matthew 24:13). Choose life. Lay down your burdens, your will, your hopes, your dreams, your very life, before the Lord Jesus Christ. Surrender to Him completely, and He will lift you up, build you into a man or woman of God, and fill you with His life and power. "Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it" (Matthew 10:39). This is not first a call to physical death, but to a death of self, a surrender of your will to God's. This is where true life begins.
